Thursday, January 17, 2008
My heart aches
So, on Sunday my period will officially be 2 weeks late. My cycle works like clockwork - 4 weeks to the day. A week and a half ago I took a home pg test: negative. Last week I took another one: negative. Today - still no period - I went on base and took another pg test: negative. It's not hard to believe that I'm not pregnant when my period comes when it's supposed to - but when it doesn't come, I begin to be hopeful. When I found out that today's test was negative (they called me with the results) I just cried, and I've been crying on & off throughout the day/evening. My eyes are all puffy now. *heavy sigh* I had a wonderful evening with Anna, despite my tears. We watched The Chipmunk Adventure (old school) and I cried during it - and not in normal spots, just random parts of the movie caused me to become emotional and cry. I asked Tyler to give me a blessing - it said that we're not meant to know all things. *deep heavy sigh* I need to increase my faith that God will take care of me and that what he wants for me will happen. I just need to be patient.
Articulations by Jill Pierce at 8:46 PM