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Monday, November 27, 2006

Audition Results

I won't wait until the end of the post to say that I did NOT get a solo with the Messiah. Yeah...pretty bummed about it, actually. The hardest part was learning that I didn't get a solo and then had to try to keep my composure for the next hour and a half until I could get in my car and cry all the way home. Forgive me, I don't mean to boast--but I seriously thought I was better than the other two sopranos. So it's hurts my confidence when I'm not chosen to have at least one solo. There were 6 solos and 3 sopranos that girl got an amazing 5 solos and the other girl got 1--the one that I wanted. I was pretty upset and Tyler gave me a blessing that indicated that there was a bit of prejudice involved in the choir director's decision---because I'm a mormon. He has a list of everyone and from what church they are coming from. I really hope that he wouldn't make such a biased decision based on my religion, but it's easier for me to swallow that he didn't want me to have it BECAUSE i'm a mormon than because I'm not as good as the other sopranos who auditioned. Make sense? I hope alas, I won't get to sing the song my mom sang in college. *sniff sniff*

Everything else that I did today doesn't seem as great now because of the audition, but I did have a productive day. I did laundry, cleaned the house, read scriptures, mailed some things I sold on Busy day. And tonight I changed my cell phone number to a local Ohio number. (just so you know in case you try my old number and it doesn't work now) That's it for today. Tomorrow has to be better---right???


Carina Alleman said...

Oh, Jill, I'm so sorry! That's so incredibly horrible that prejudice and bigotry are keeping you from singing the solo you really deserve. But hey, maybe the Lord has bigger things in store for you :) I know you're awesome, and so does He! So keep smiling and you'll still have a wonderful holiday season. Love ya!

Tuan's Princess said...

oh my gosh, I'm fuming for you. What a jerk. You would think that with an oppertunity to direct the messiah, he would be more focused on the MUSIC (that is why everyone is there, right?) than his own stupid agenda. I wonder what is wrong with the church the other soloist goes to. It must be pretty uncomfortable for the soloist who got 5 as well - especially if she also feels that you did better. I'm so sorry that this happened. I wouldn't have been able to hld my composure - kudos for that. Feel better, ok? Sending lots of love vibes your way. *Hugs*,

Melisa said...

I'm so sorry. It is sad that people can still be so biased. His loss. Don't let yourself get discouraged though. You have a real talent and you shouldn't let this keep you from your dreams. You can do it!