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Monday, March 03, 2008

Celebrate my family

If you're just now tuning into the life of Jill, The WARRIOR, then you will know that I am pursuing infertility treatments. It takes a warrior to endure infertility struggles. It's been almost 5 1/2 years that we've been trying for baby #2. Since we moved to OH, I have had the amazing blessing of working with an infertility specialist on-base. We've done clomid, metformin, injections, & IUI. I was hopeful this month - like every other month - but I woke up to my period this morning. :o( So, it looks like I'll be starting back up on the abdominal injections this week...I don't mind them so much - it's the HCG shot in the buttocks the day before the IUI that really hurts. My sweet husband came home to spend some time with me during his lunch break - he gave me a blessing that really comforted me and gave me hope. I couldn't ask for a more supportive husband than Tyler. He is constant in his affection, encouragement, and love for me. I wouldn't be able to endure this trial without a strong man at my side. I love you, Honey!

I'm grateful for friends. When Sarah heard about my period coming today - she came and picked me up and took me shopping. She's very perceptive and attentive to me and I'm very grateful for such a fabulous VT companion and friend. Then out of the blue I received a nice e-card from my friend, Sherry, which really lifted my spirits. And then, my friend Glittersmama, and her family went out to dinner with us at Chili's, then they took us out for ice cream at Graeter's, and then back to her house for some nintendo fun. I'm so grateful for the friends that Heavenly Father blesses me with wherever I am living.

I decided that even though this is another cycle that didn't bring us another baby - I choose to celebrate the family that I do have. I have a beautiful, amazing daughter who loves me and prays for me in every prayer she says. I cannot imagine my life without my daughter or my husband: I love them more than I can express with words.


Steph said...

My heart goes out to you. I struggled with infertility for a little over a year (I know, a small time compared to your struggle). In my lesson in Relief Society last Sunday, they taught us that we will be judged on the desires of our heart. They were talking about infertility specifically, and that we are given the desire to bear children and that doesn't go way, because it is a righteous desire. It amazes me how a heart can ache for a child. One thing that I know, is that Heavenly Father is acutely aware of our individual situations. He knows how your heart aches and He aches with you. Keep praying and know that you are not alone. Here's hopin' for next month, huh. :)

Kathey said...

Dear Sweet Jill,

I am SO sorry. My heart also goes out to you. I don't know why you're having to go through this, but I DO know that Heavenly Father loves you dearly, and he knows how you feel. I sincerely emphathize with the heartache. We had infertility problems and miscarriages. We didn't start having our own children until we applied to adopt a second time.

Heavenly Father works in such mysterious ways. Kirsten was meant to be ours. She just took a detour. She was also meant to have the problems she has, and frankly if she had been our natural child and has the problems she has, I would have been afraid to have more. Helena and Kirsten were 17 months apart. Then we had yet another miscarriage before Peter. As things turned out though, it was good for us to have that long gap between Helena and Peter. We never would have planned it that way but Heavenly Father could see down the road farther than we could.

Oh, I don't know if any of this is helpful to you. I hope it is. I just wanted you to know that Heavenly Father really does love you, and is acutely aware of you. It's like President Hinckley said, "Things will work out. If you keep trying and praying and working, things will work out. They always do."

Love, Kathey

Alabama Apples said...

You are an amazing woman. Reading your blog always uplifts me! I just wanted to tell you that.