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Sunday, March 30, 2008

Emotions

Well, I didn't fast this Fast Sunday - because I could potentially be pregnant, but then this morning I found out that I'm not. :o( I wish I could have known yesterday so I could have been fasting today. *sigh* I told Tyler that my period came right before church began. He asked me if I was going to bear my testimony and I said: "No, I don't want to cry." So, he decided to bear his testimony...and he cried. Poor guy. The whole infertility issue has been so difficult for us both. We always dreamed of having a big family with lots of kids and happy memories like the ones we both had growing up. I'm not saying that I don't appreciate having our daughter and that we don't have happy experiences with her - it's a dream to have her in our lives...we just want some siblings for her. This is a difficult trial.

Now that I'm really focused on trying to lose weight, we thought that perhaps we should take a short break from infertility methods. We went to the temple on friday and Tyler prayed to know if we should continue them or not - before he could even ask the question in prayer the answer came: "YES." So, regardless of what happens, we know that we're supposed to be doing infertility treatments at this time. I'm grateful for answered prayers.

9 comments:

Queen Mother said...

(((sweetie)))

Infertility is horrid. There is no other way to put it. I wish you were not going through this. I always said that I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy..and here you are, my dear friend who I love and adore, having to endure this. Just continue to rely on the Lord. It's hard, but it is the only way I got through it. You'll be ok. And somehow, someway, you will have your big family-I just know it.

On to pratical issues; how long was your luteal phase this time? Did he ever put you on progesterone?

nicole said...

I'm sooo sorry, Jill. :( What a terribly difficult trial you guys are experiencing. Tyler is so sweet. His testimony was really touching today, and he is a great example of having faith in Heavenly Father's plan for our lives. Whenever I'm in the midst of a trial, I'm comforted by Christ's words, "Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."
I also love how He tells us to be so united as His disciples that we mourn for those that mourn. My heart just aches for you guys.
:( We'll keep praying for you guys. Love you!

jennifer said...

Jill, I'm so sorry. I know it's hard to think that "this may be the month" and then be so devastated when it doesn't happen. It's hard to do that month after month. But you guys are a great example of faith and hope and perseverance. You know that you are loved and being thought of and that tons of prayers are being offered up in your behalf!

Melisa said...

I'm so sorry. I wish I knew what to say to make it all better. Love you.

Alabama Apples said...

I'm so very sorry. Don't you love answered prayers! In the darkest moments, they are our ray of sunshine. I'm sorry I can't make everything better. Just know I'm thinking of you. Love you!

Carina said...

My prayers are with your family through this difficult time! I know the Lord will help you and grant you your righteous desires according to His will. I love you!

Debbie said...

Tyler's testimony was beautiful! You are so blessed to have a husband that you are so close to you and will support you through this. You are doing all you can and the Lord will bless you for your efforts. You guys are in our prayers. Thank you for being such a great example of where to turn when we are going through trials.

Lilola said...

We had a friend who said that the only bad thing about the gospel was that it could make a grown man cry!

I love the comfort the gospel can bring, I'm glad it is helping you.

Steph said...

Jill, I am so sorry. There never is a good time for bad news, huh. Just remember the Lord loves you and knows your pain.