Most people make New Year's Resolutions each year. I haven't taken this idea seriously until now. I have made a goal to lose 60 pounds this year. On Monday I will being Bob Greene's Total Body Makeover 12 week program. In reading his book, he talks about laying a solid emotional foundation before beginning the program. He believes that you should know why you overeat before you try to address it. After thinking about the questions he asks, I have concluded that part of the problem is that I struggle loving myself. I find it easy to love others - my husband, my children, my family & friends - but to love myself? Well, that's more difficult. I've been overweight since grade school and I have allowed myself to believe those nasty comments about how fat or worthless I am as a person because I was overweight. A year ago my dad gave me a priesthood blessing that said: "You should know that Jill loves Jill." How simple - but meaningful to me. Before then I hadn't realized that I didn't love myself. They say that "Knowledge is Power" and now that I am beginning to understand myself - I feel more empowered that I will finally gain success over my weight troubles and in turn, learn to love myself for who I am - not because of what I am.
I am trying to come up with some ways to show myself love. Here are a few ideas thus far:
- Put lotion on everyday. I put lotion on my kids - but not on myself. Am I worth it to put lotion on? You bet!
- Smile at myself in the mirror.
- Take pictures of myself regularly and not groan about it.
- Eat healthy and realize that eating healthy IS loving myself as opposed to making & eating cookies.
I want to know how you show yourself love. Please share your ideas with me. I intend to learn from this realization!