Macaroni and cheese

It's no secret that Keith likes macaroni and cheese. In fact, it's probably his favorite food. He can even say it - or something that sounds a lot like it. Tonight, Tyler was running errands, so I made macaroni and cheese. (I like to cook something better when he is home) I made one box for me and my 3 kids, which is plenty! In fact, Iryna, Keith, & I all had second helpings, along with the peas and peaches that I served on the side.

After Keith finished his second helping of MAC, he asked for more (no surprise there). I showed him the pot (which was empty) and he started screaming. I calmly suggested that it might be time for bed. So I took him to get on his jammies and brush his teeth - which he loathes doing - and then I rocked him in the rocking chair in his room. For 20 minutes - Keith screamed, squirmed, and hit himself while I snuggled, loved on, and I sang to him. It was not fun. Eventually he asked if he could go to bed, so I tucked him in, kissed him, and left the room.

And now all my energy is gone - physical and emotional. It's difficult to have a child who screams non-stop in my ears and behaves like that. There are days when it seems like my twins are just like other children, but then there are moments (like tonight) where I'm reminded that I definitely have two SPECIAL NEEDS children who demand need more attention, more love, and more understanding from me. Sometimes I feel like I can't give any more and I just want to hide somewhere - usually at the computer - until I can collect myself and start again.