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Friday, June 01, 2012

Silas' Surgery

We now have a date for Silas' surgery. It is on June 21st and many things need to happen before then. The surgery is 3 hours away from us and so I will be going (alone) with Silas and will be staying at the Ronald McDonald house during his surgery/recovery. We have to be there a couple of days early for pre-op. My wonderful in-laws are driving down from Oklahoma to spend some time with Silas before he goes in for surgery and then will watch the older 4 kids for about 5 of the 10 days that I will be gone. Tyler will use his 2 day pass that he earned by scoring 100% on his PT test (way to go, honey!) and then we will see about some friends from church watching the kids the other couple of days. I am putting together some recipes that I can prepare ahead of time and freeze, so my in-laws can just enjoy the grandchildren and not have to worry about dinner.

It is a lot to take in and I will admit that I am overwhelmed by it all, not to mention that I'm still very much adjusting to having 5 kids. The last few days have been especially rough. I normally wake up with a positive attitude and ready to take on the day, but the past few days I have woken up already feeling discouraged. I know that this will take time and I know that it will improve but that doesn't make me feel all warm and fuzzy right NOW. I am also back up to 400 pounds now. Last September I weighed 415 and started on a high protein/low carb diet and lost 26 pounds by January of this year. I have gained 11 pounds and that is frustrating. When I think about dieting I want to scream, cry, and bake something. I am making an effort to drink a protein shake each day and drinking water, plus eating a total of 5 servings of fruits/veggies per day. For now, that is enough and I hope to gain the strength I need to lose more weight. I would love to be back down to 380 by August, but I know that I have to do what it takes to make that happen and right now I am not prepared to do so.


5 comments:

Trent and Meg said...

Hugs to you my friend. Good luck with all your preparations!! Just remember to take a moment for yourself each day...possibly to blog, to read, to pray (lock the bathroom door ;0) and everything will be the best it can be for that moment :)

Rebecca said...

That does sound stressful! Change is hard, and you have a lot of stuff going on. You ARE doing a great job. Hang in there.

Courtney said...

Hang in there, Jill! I don't have any magic words of wisdom, but it DOES get easier. It just takes a while. We went from 0 to 2 to 4 to 6 kids in a little over three years. I've come to realize that part of me is still adjusting to being a mom. I'm a mom of an almost-10-year-old and I've only been a mom for 4.5 years! I feel like we are finally starting to settle into some things with everyone. I do think it takes a good year after each adoption to settle into a new normal, so hang in there and try to be patient. {{HUGS!!}}

Courtney said...

Oh, and don't forget the RR After the Rainbow group. They are VERY supportive and so helpful!!

Carina said...

Not much to say other than I'm sending over a HUGE HUG from Utah! Love you, cuz!!!!