Stages

I'm a woman. I go through stages. Sometimes I stay on a stage for a day or two, perhaps a week, month, year, etc. I've been going through the stage where I didn't find myself attractive for most of my life. I've always been overweight--well, since 5th grade. I was told growing up that I have nice eyes, hair, skin...and that my sister Heather was "SO BEAUTIFUL." (It didn't help that she actually modeled)

Part of my thinking was concluded from the fact that I never was asked out on dates. I felt that I had a lot to offer--but I wasn't the typical blonde, thin girl. And before all of you begin to think that I'm throwing myself a pity party or that I must have absolutely no self confidence...I think I may have turned a corner. FINALLY. I looked at myself in the mirror a couple of days ago (yes, full body shot), and I thought--my, don't I look good! I mean, I have a great figure--it's proportioned. Even though my size is bigger than most women I know--I'm still attractive. I wish that I could have felt this earlier in my life...okay, my WHOLE life. But I will settle for feeling/thinking it now. Just remember that when you read this blog--I am being completely honest with my feelings, and I'm sure a week from now I may be fretting about my size, but for now--I accept myself as I am. And let me tell you, it feels pretty darn good. =)

Thanks for all the nice emails/comments. I appreciate you all so much. =)

Today was Ward Conference. President Heap was there and before it began he was up on the stand. My daughter also happened to be up there and I saw her talking with Pres Heap. I was a bit concerned what might be coming out of her mouth--you never know what she might feel like sharing--but I soon forgot about it after the meeting began. When Pres Heap got up to speak, he said that he learned something this morning--something that Anna Pierce taught him. I was pretty worried about what might come next...then he said that he'd asked her if she was Sister Pierce--to which she replied, No, I'm ANNA Pierce. Pres Heap then went on to say how children want to be known by their first names and further--Heavenly Father knows each of us by our first names and knows us completely. It was a fun experience--but there was a moment when I was so scared to know what Anna had taught him. ;)

We had two sisters, Moriah & Emma, come over today. They are both beautiful redheds. Anna was playing doctor with Emma, using crayons pretending to be shots. Then I overheard Anna saying that Emma needed some medicine. Listening to hear what that "medicine" might be, Anna said: "You need Faith Medicine, because we all need Faith." Too precious...